The day was cold and windy when I found out you were growing
within. But I remember having a warm
feeling from head to toe because you filled me with happiness, feelings beyond
belief and immense tears of joy. Imagine that? And we had only known each other
for a matter of minutes at that time. Even then I knew I loved you
unconditionally. You have no idea how excited both daddy and I were about what
a baby meant for us and couldn’t wait to share our news. As I look back now by the way everyone
embraced the news and anticipated your arrival it should have been a no brainer
that you would be a BIG deal. You have surely proven that and you are only just
turning 1!
As we planned for you and waited for you, there were so many
things that mommy and daddy went through which you are much too young to
understand right now. Some things made
us laugh, some things made us nervous and other things made us cry. But what
was most important of all was that we loved you and just couldn’t wait to meet
you. It was really the hardest thing I
have ever had to wait for and mommy was getting ever so impatient. All I could
do was have faith and pray for more patience that you would arrive
safely. On the day you finally did make
your entrance it was exactly one year from today. I remember it like no other and I just couldn’t
stop crying when I heard your first cry because you were here, you were
beautiful and you were perfect.
So as I think about all we have been through since September
8, 2011 there is so much that comes to mind. It is filled with love, anxiousness,
laughter, worry, some frustration, lots of tears, great joy, pride and
empowerment. But more than anything it
is filled with happiness because we’ve shared all your baby “first” moments this
year, our endless hours of cuddling and the indescribable joy of adding you to our
family that makes it complete and whole.
This is what is important and this is our how lives were meant
to be lived. You coming into this world
to show us and others how to love beyond measure and how to live life to the
fullest without taking one single day for granted. Yes baby, you have showed us that and are
still doing it! You were the baby I was
meant to have and I am the mother you were meant to have because God makes no
mistakes. He knew what he was doing and
he knew that we would need each other along this journey full of the
unpredictable. From the extended NICU
stay, the days of NG feeding tubes, the multiple ER visits, constant oxygen
level checks, to unplanned ambulance transports from one hospital to another,
to the looming but critically needed open heart surgery to those hours upon
hours of different therapies we have done it together. Me, you, daddy and all
our countless family and friends both near and far. I need you to know that I love you. You strengthen me. You make me proud and I cannot even imagine
how I thought I was fulfilled before you came into it.
It is surely amazing how in just one year you have turned
our lives around all for the better and made me the proudest mama around and
your biggest cheerleader. Mommy will be
there every step of the way as you grow into a mature little boy and I will rally
behind you to help you reach your full potential. That is a promise. There will be no stopping you and you will
amaze us all with each milestone you conquer.
So on this day when you officially turn “1” know that you
have taught and showed mommy and daddy so many things and touched many lives
with your beauty, intelligence and infectious smile. You have had a remarkable
year full of triumph and promise but the best is yet to come. Just you wait and
see, just you wait and see. You were
meant to be celebrated today and every day!
Happy 1st
birthday my angel!
With love,
Your Mommy
